Recently, sometimes I felt my friends, might not be my friends at all, just strangers.. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time.. Do you speak to your friend VERY VERY rudely when there’s a BIG problem occurred between the 2 of you even though you are friends? Are you considerate of your friend when he/she asked you to company him/her to lunch and not delaying time? Or selfishly said you only got class at a later time, so you can slowly eat later on and ignore your friend? Although last time, we were like a family, always hang out together, always doing things together, it still couldn’t overcome the conflicts we’re facing now, because we have a very large gap of knowledge, they won’t ask you out anymore, thinking that you are not worth being a friend, left you out when they are planning to do anything or talk about something, thinking that they are so smart, you have no knowledge of it, you are nothing.. what you said doesn’t mean anything and thus, ignored.. Almost like you have no use for them anymore, so they stop being very nice to you anymore.. Or if you did not achieve anything, they will start to ignore you..

When you asked questions, they don’t only regard you as stupid, they even rudely replied and criticizes you. People asking questions is just to improve one self’s knowledge, but they, as friends will look down on you because you ask such a stupid question? That’s the kind of people who are very high and proud of themselves which I think is a disgrace in other people’s eyes including me. They like to compare their skills or grades, really high IQ but extremely low EQ in my opinion. That’s why, I think that being with friends whose grades are not very good or have little skills, doesn’t matter, as long as they are a true friend, who treats you nicely and kindly assists in anything. I may have better grades, but I always believe asking friends who may be poorer is not embarrassing at all. Instead I’m glad that I asked them.

Another thing is, a forum was created for the purpose of expanding my club’s future convention, some people may have misused their authorities in the forum, including me(I admit), and started flaming each other though we’re in the same club >< Then 1 party stopped posting while the other continued to support the forum. Like the party who stopped posting agreed with some other users to stop participating in the forum too, making it inactive most of the time, leading to failure of the original purpose of the forum(which is to promote our convention); the forum which our President spent time on creating is very lonesome now. I’m not very sure, but if they really “pakat” to stop posting in the forum, I would really think that they are very childish. Why I’m thinking like that? Cause they stopped posting at the same time after the incident, where at first they were posting like crazy, having fun..

I’m very disappointed with those kinds of friends, they expect to be treated nicely while they treat other people like crap. Last time, I always think that we should treat other people kindly and nicely, then other people would treat you the same too, but from what I see, they misused this kindness for their own benefit, and returned a nasty attitude eg. rude, inconsiderate, backstabbing etc. .

This is what I’m feeling about this matter, my own personal opinion that I wish to voice out, I’m sorry if I mentioned something about you, no hard feelings yea? 🙂 Because I’m feeling being left out sometimes, and I’m being looked down upon by whoever, I don’t know.. And I don’t care.. I’m used to being alone..

 

Is this my world,
Or reality?
As in my dreams,
A world of friends..

Just fantasy,
An illusion,
As in my heart,
No warmth within…

Another realm,
Another world,
Which I hate most,
The lonely space…

It will not end,
Nor stop in time,
My scattered dreams,
Will not come true…

I wish I can go to another better world..

~Serene

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